The Bold and the Restless

I have a strange dichotomy going on -- I'm tired as hell and restless at the same time. I got to thinking about my last post I made earlier this evening, I decided to do something really extreme -- make another blog -- on another website, and put myself in a fishbowl for the whole world to watch while I let my audience motivate me to get in shape again. Since nobody even reads my blogs anyway, I guess I'm alone. Sure is lonely out here in the blogosphere but I'm thinking positive, and maybe one day someone will stop by and say hello to me.

I set up a new blog on today.com and I have committed myself to making a post today, and therefore needing content, I figured my fat issue would be good enough. If I can do it, you can do it! I'll be putting some images and their as a starting point so the progress from beginning to end can be tracked, and the buying the end of next week I should be a size 3, with all the qualities of the 21-year-old! NOT! You'll find my alter ego over at http://theboldandtherestless.today.com/ . In the meantime I'll be back here bitching about being fat, freelance writing jobs, addiction, and my favorite -- massage therapy and bodywork. Maybe you'll come visit me over it today.com and give me some encouragement because I really am not in the mood for this, but it needs to be done.

What was I thinking when I named this blog?

I think I made a mistake naming this blog Living Large! The scale shrieked when I stepped on it, like a little wily mouse! Damn! 7 LBS in ONE WEEK? Where is that coming from?

Maybe menapause....they say after 50 we women can pack it on, and losing weight can become very difficult. I have tried losing weight on many occasions, succeeded on some, gave it up on others. It looks like I am or have been, in the 'give up mode' again. Siiigh.

Why is losing weight so difficult? Hellifino. Hellifino is the newest, most powerful form of Butt Enlargememnt on the net. It's aquired from sitting in front of a computer screen and refraining from getting up except to pee or eat. I haven't even checked the mail in 4 days! Hellifino what's in the mailbox! Prolly a package of Hellificare!

Seriously, about this losing wieght thing....I am 173 as of this morning. Last week, I was 166. What gives. It's time again, lay off the white flour and processed sugar food. Eat only the things God would make for himself and maybe, just maybe, I'll lose weight.....again.

Happy Holidays my butt!

We Have Ignition!!!

Fired up real good today! Off and running to write some letters!!!


Finally! I've been waiting for months to get back into LetterRep and start writing letters again! LetterRep is for people needing letters written on their behalf, for one reason or another. I joined LetterRep early last summer, hoping to not only exercise my writing capabilities, but to help somebody with a project that they needed done and can't or won't do themselves.

LetterRep is a website where people can purchase prewritten letters for a huge variety of occasions; employer/employee communication, scholarships, thank you letters, appeals, complaints, and a barrage of other reasons -- any reason necessary to write a letter in the first place! But a lot of people don't know how to write very well -- there English may be broken, or they just plain don't want to take the time -- and that's where LetterRep's authors come in.
When I first started writing for them I thought it would be easy -- then I discovered there was a serious problem going on in that forum -- no contact was allowed with people requesting the letters written! Well, how in the world am I supposed to write a letter for somebody when I can't get all the details I need to present a letter on their behalf to anyone? Needless to say I didn't sell too many letters! I gave it up rather quickly and went on about searching out other freelance writing gigs that at least showed some promise! I hooked up with http://www.getafreelancer.com and proceeded to seek out more writing jobs, but I soon found that finding a decent paying job on their site was like finding a needle in a haystack, or worse! If you stick with it, you will find some gems there, and some great writing assignments. But in the back of my mind it still kept bugging me that I couldn't write letters on LetterRep. I just wanted to make somebody's day. Do something for them that they just could not or would not do for themselves! And then....

This morning I opened my e-mail and there was a note from LetterRep.com announcing that they had just created a means for we authors to connect up with the requesters! So I'm back in business, doing what somebody else doesn't want to do, and taking a load off of them by writing whatever it is they need. It's worth checking out if you'd like to write, and if you don't like to write and need something written, go sign up with them, and see about getting something written for any occasion you might need.

The Law of Attraction--Your Thoughts Affect Your Reality

The Law of Atraction is always working, never stops, always produces the elements it is fueled by. If you think it is not working for you...think again, think it is.

Your subconscious mind is a powerful tool, and if harnessed correctly, you will be able to align your inner world with your outer world. By exposing yourself to more of what you would like to achieve in the outer world, your inner world will similarly be reinforced.


The key difference in attitudes of the wealthy and the less so is in the way they think and behave. How you think is reflected in your inner world, whilst your behavior is how you express in your outer world. Hence, your actions are important as they create subconscious impressions of your status. Here are a few ways how you can create congruence between your inner and outer world, and so achieve greater wealth.

1) Your Choices
Your actions and choices will create the environment around you, which will either spell out wealth, or poverty. By choosing to use the best quality products that are necessary, you are subconsciously telling your mind that you can afford it and that you are superior. This is not the same as simply over spending, or buying more than what you need. It is about aligning your inner and outer world, so that you satisfy your needs in a way that maximizes your utility.

2) Don’t Waste Money
Often, you find yourself buying a cheaper substitute for a product that you really want. Whilst an off the rack mp3 player may serve the same function as an Ipod, for example, the utility you derive from and Ipod is much higher. You will feel dissatisfied with your mp3 player, and this unhappiness that you experience may eventually motivate you to buy the real McCoy so as to satisfy your need. By buying what you would prefer in the first place, you will save on the money that you have spent buying repeated products.

3) Your Mindset
Those who are less well off are unwilling to spend money on the items that they would like to possess, because they are afraid. On the other hand, the wealthy do not limit their minds in this way, and hence obtain greater satisfaction. When you are happier with what you have, you will send forth vibes that attract even more happiness in life. Like attracts itself; this does not mean wasteful spending, it is simply spending where necessary. Your environment plays a big part in affecting your subconscious mind. Your surroundings will impress upon your mind that you are wealthy or poor, and by surrounding yourself with symbols of wealth you will create the same conditions in reality. Hence, there is a match in your inner and outer world. Whilst you may not be able to avoid signs of poverty, you can create greater focus on wealth by focusing on signs of abundance. Placing yourself in environments where you are able to relate to the rich will help you to achieve this congruence. When you can fully master the subconscious mind to work in your favor, you will be able to generate sound plans and executable ideas to achieve greater wealth.

God? A Woman? By Golly...Maybe!

I got this from my favorite forum

http://www.godlikeproduction.com/

and HAD to share this...it's soooo, uh, friggin TRUE!



I have Come To Believe that God is a Woman...

and She may have postpartum psychosis.



Adam and Eve:

“OK kids. Here’s a nifty playground to play in. You can do anything you want here. EXCEPT eat from that tree over there. The one with the snake in it. DON’T TOUCH THAT TREE!”(wait and lurk, wait and lurk)“HA! I knew you couldn’t do it! Get out of my house! Get out! *BAM* You both are ashamed of being naked! *BAM* Woman, you’re gonna bleed every month til the day you die! *BAM* You’re cursed with two sons, one of whom will kill the other! *BAM BAM BAM* Get out!Abraham:“Brahamie, sweetie. Do me one little itsy bitsy favor? Kill your son? Please? For me? Just knife him. If you love me, you’ll do it.(tense moments)“Bwaahahahahahaha! Just kidding. Stop now. Ha ha. I was just testing you to see if you were committed to this relationship.

Jesus:

“OK, sweetie. I’m going to send you down to that hellhole. You’ll be born in a barn with a child as your mother and an old man as your father. You won’t get to live very long. Not even as long as your foster parents, because them’s crazy folk down there. They’re gonna beat you and cut you up. Gonna string you up and nail you to a telephone pole. And I’m gonna let ‘em, cuz I love you so much. Always remember, this will hurt me more than it hurts you.

Noah:

“Here’s the skinny, Noah. You need to build this big-assed ship to my exact specifications. It has to be exact. EXACT. You hear me? You need to stuff it full of animals and stuff. I can’t say I’m happy about it, but I guess you can take your family, too. Get on the boat and stay there because I’m going to kill everyone else in the world. Everyone! You hear me? EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING!”

ROFL x 3

The Pain Of Addiction

This is a typical,very common statement you will hear from an addict:



“I could not make myself get out of bed, I could not face the day, suddenly the things I once cared about school,, work, family, friends, and bills) became less important to me, and the only thing I craved was my next Oxy in order to get out of bed and face the day.“



That quote was taken from a forum...one of many, where addicts go to seek out help and a place to unload.

Mind you, this is not about me, but what I see all around me nearly every day!


You know,

it's a real unfunny situation when you watch people around you systematically destroying their lives with prescription drugs. Dammit, it hurts.All of the who's, what's, why's, where's, and when's have all been asked and researched and I am still at a loss -- helplessly hoping somebody will get these people I know off the prescription drug addictions!
I don't have to specifically mention any names here -- I'd really rather not. If it weren't for the fact that everyone around me seems to have a problem with this problem, I wouldn't have any problems at all! I really wouldn't! But when relationship bonds are wrapped so tightly by threads of love, or should I say chains -- it is near impossible to turn your back and walk away. Oh and don't think I haven't! I can't, and I won't.

Today is just another one of those days that I have to watch on the sidelines as someone I love deeply deals with their own SIN (Self-Inflicted Nonsense). Trouble is, if I let it, it will drag me down to their level. I'll be damned if I'm going to lay around in bed, half dead with no strength, no will to move, laxodasic (sp???) and lethargic, showing no signs of giving a shit in any meaningful way. So now, I will not let this get me down. Nor will I ever stoop to the level of swallowing one of those damn things that is causing the dysfunction I see all around me. This "thing" is a prescription drug problem, and it comes in many forms. OxyContin, Roxycotton, Percocet, hydrocodone, Xanax, soma, Vicodin and others I have probably forgotten for the moment, are the downfall and the death grip besieging family and many friends. Of course, they don't think they have a problem.

I'm just a mom, and I'm trying to be a good one at that. But these are one of the things that's totally out of my hands. I have helped in every conceivable way, and now it is up to the individual to do something about the problem themselves. As I said before, if it weren't for their problems, I wouldn't have any problems at all -- none -- nada!
This blog is an outlet for me. Through this blog, I'm going to tell you how it is -- whether you want to see it or not. If you think you, or possibly your son or daughter, brother or sister, mom or dad, aunt, uncle, niece, nephew, neighbor, teacher, preacher, doctor, boss or coworker, grandmother or grandfather -- don't have a drug problem, then you better think again! There is no one exempt from the prescription drug addiction epidemic going on on our streets and in our neighborhoods. No one. Whether you get it from prescription by a doctor, or you get it from the streets, you have a problem. And it's time you look at it for what it is. One of the most common things I hear is "you don't know what you're talking about" or something else along the lines of I have this under control, don't worry about me." Bull crap I don't know what I'm talking about -- you don't know what you're talking about... just look around you, get on the Web and research if you feel like taking the time to read! Any number of forums are brimming with desperation from people seeking to get off of these life sucking drugs! I have read stories of people from all walks of life, young and old, wealthy and poor and middle class in between. No one is exempt.

There are people who do take their opiate and narcotic prescriptions responsibly -- hail to them!, I'd like to see them try get off of them. Pain or no pain.... just try it. You're screwed. It hurts. You're sick. You want your pills to make you feel better. Guess what? people with no pain to begin with start taking pills for fun and a great high, but soon will end up with pain once they try to stop. It takes a strong soul and a determine to stop. By the time you finally realize you do have an addiction -- it's too late. You'll play hell to get off the damn things! Not saying that it can't be done -- I'm saying it's horrendous to do so. What I'd like to say most of all is "just don't go there".

The Oxycontin epidemic, accompanied by Roxy's and Vicodin and many other opiates and narcotics infiltrate every aspect of society. You can walk up to just about any kid on the street and ask for one of these pills, chances are very good that or she will know where to get them. Chances are pretty high that they take him themselves. The effects of these drugs have caused the network of resources out there for people to seek them. If one person can't find them, there is always somebody who can. Tomorrow when I post the next segment of this blog I will get into the reason why I'm pissed about this whole thing. I hate prescription drugs -- but I hate what they do to people's lives more than anything!

Here are another quote from a forum I found, saying it all:

"Believe me when I tell you that the drug world is one of ultimate depression. Someone addicted to opiates is amongst the living dead. You can smell it on them as easily as if they were rotting from within. "

It's all I can do to keep from feeling their pain myself! Oh, how the bonds of love hold tight!

Some places to go and see for yourself--Anyone you know live like this???

http://www.michaelshouse.com/oxycontin-addiction/about-oxycontin-addiction.html

http://www.oxyabusekills.com/

http://www.topix.com/forum/drug/oxycontin/T0RVSJ5IF90EAPPN3

http://www.medhelp.org/forums/addiction/messages/31597a.html

http://enemyblog.typepad.com/enemy_blog/2008/09/try-for-the-kingdom-if-i-can-on-heroin.html

The M.O.M. Has A Blog! .....Man, This is Living Large!!

Okay, so I am new to this. (Quivering and shivering in apprehension and anticipation).
I am new to the blog scene respectively, so bear with me while I get my feet wet and prepare to dive in!

I painstakingly figured out how to set this blog up this morning so that I could communicate with you about massage therapy, bodywork, writing, freelance writing work, reading nonfiction and the benefits of feeding your head with nutritional knowledge, and fun things you get out of philosophical reasoning. These are just a few of the things we can get into together on this blog, and I truly hope that we have a long-lasting relationship in sharing ideas and information.
I've been licensed for massage therapy since 1993, and have worked in many venues for practicing my profession, the longest of which was at a resort spa located on the west coast of Florida. The spa really wasn't work to me, it was more or less a second home or a playground. In fact, massage therapy never was work to me -- it was playtime. I used to pride myself on being a professional blubber rubber, and I loved to rub blubber! Oh come on now -- I mean that in a positive way! I don't care whether you are fat or skinny, as long as you can get off the table and look at me like I made your day! And if you give me a hug, that's almost as good as a cash tip!
Massage therapy has many facets, it is not all physical. There are many energy therapies out there that I naturally utilize and integrate during a regular massage. One of my favorites is Reiki, for which I am a level 3 practitioner -- for what that's worth. I'll get more in-depth on that matter in another post specifically about Reiki, but for now I will can see is that the various levels of Reiki are an illusion. Sometimes the illusions are fun, sometimes they're helpful, but they're not always necessary!


Another energy therapy I endorse wholeheartedly is EFT. EFT stands for Emotional Freedom Technique and is a tapping technique used to stimulate certain points along the neural pathways in our bodies, causing us to release pent-up emotional baggage that causes all sorts of problems. EFT really looks stupid when you're performing it, and anyone who is newly introduced to it can't help but laugh at how silly it looks, but damn if it don't work! EFT is a remarkable therapy that has made its mark on a large number of psychotherapy professionals -- psychiatrists, psychologists, social workers, and even medical doctors! The profound results speak for themselves. I'll leave it at that now. More posts coming in due time.

Because I have so much knowledge in my head about so many subjects, especially relating to health care issues, I have to have some sort of outlet for it, so freelance writing is another great topic for discussion here on this blog! I have several sources that I work with, and although I am not currently rated professional in this endeavor, I am taking some time and putting in some effort into further study to know the ropes when it comes to publishing written work. I have some published articles on www.associatedcontent.com/shikah, and have more on textbroker.com. Both of these websites are great for people who like to write and earn a few extra bucks on the side. I do it for practice. One day I'll get good at it!


Another facet of this blog will be devoted to the trucking industry, and what life on the road is like inside an 18 wheeler as your home. There are times I'll refer to that, because on the road is where freedom is... the freedom that most of us only can dream about!
But what I'd like to do with this blog is make somebody's day, share a tidbit of anecdotal knowledge or sparkly gem of truth for someone to be blessed by! Yes I know I used a lot of exclamation marks in my writing, but if you could hear my voice, you'd understand why! Life truly is a joy and I always feel like I'm living large!